honestly speaking..
I’ve been terrified to break down, to show my weaknesses.  in a world full of emotional roller coasters, it has been easy for me just not to. Not to feel to much, not to listen to the feelings to much.. all these not to.

To reach high levels, you got to be… almost aggressive. When we hear people talking about others weaknesses, we’re trying even harder not to show ours. Welcome to the modern time.
We are supposed to be strong, independent, critical individuals with every answer right. Self-confident, insightful and comfortable. On the go, fight til we succeed and if we don’t: til we die.
If we’re exaggerating a bit:)

But I’ve learned through the hard way, that sometimes if you want to move on, you need to break down.. sometimes at least. To break apart, cry a bit and try again. It could be necessarily to do that, to even be able to move on. At the same time, the feeling of haven’t-I-came-farther-than-this-emotional-thing is coming.. and it’s easy to feel guilty about it. I guess my theory of face it-embrace it-leave it (about mistakes) could work here too:)

I don’t care if I speak against every smart theory, but for each and every broken-heartedness (?)/breakdown we can still be walking. Taking step by step. It sounds really not true..I know. But if you think about it. From where does that heartache come from? Isn’t it from a painful insight? We need to remind ourselves, now and then but not too often, what we are. Where we’ve been and where we’re heading.. It’s a balance, but the reminder could be a necessarily pain in the butt..sometimes

Mosaic can be beautiful.. There’s a piece, and then it’s a crack/fissure before next piece. And the pieces are different from each other. All the pieces show something that one, entire, not-broken piece couldn’t show: the beauty.
And all the cracks and fissures have a meaning for the masterpiece.. Just like you and me.